I just want to say that life is hard. Not water temple in Ocarina hard, but mind numbing, spine cracking, teeth blindingly hard.
I never thought I would get to this point. I feel like happiness is just out of reach and there is nothing I can do to move forward and grab it. I am in a place where no matter what it is that I choose me and someone else will get hurt.
I am not alone in this as much as people tell me I'm not but I know better than anyone that I am. I was drifting comfortably numb through the river of life. Then the storm came.
Something inside me flipped and I felt different. I don't really know how to explain it but I know that there is nothing I know how to do to change it.
When life hands me something I have always taken it as cautiously as possible waiting for it to explode in my hands before I have a chance to understand what it is.
Something fell into my lap recently and for the first time in my life I took it into myself without thinking. I was selfish and bold. I made a choice and did what I felt was right and now I have to live with it. I flipped that switch and I will just have to wait and see if it will ever go back to the way it used to be.
I only want to be happy with the choices and people I am around. I want to make people feel loved and I want them to do the same for me. Why does it feel like no matter what I choose, I lose? I guess fate and time have caught up with all that I have done in this life and the past ones. I will just have to let the universe do what it obviously wants me to do. Please to meet you new life, I hope you are better than the last...
I never thought I would get to this point. I feel like happiness is just out of reach and there is nothing I can do to move forward and grab it. I am in a place where no matter what it is that I choose me and someone else will get hurt.
I am not alone in this as much as people tell me I'm not but I know better than anyone that I am. I was drifting comfortably numb through the river of life. Then the storm came.
Something inside me flipped and I felt different. I don't really know how to explain it but I know that there is nothing I know how to do to change it.
When life hands me something I have always taken it as cautiously as possible waiting for it to explode in my hands before I have a chance to understand what it is.
Something fell into my lap recently and for the first time in my life I took it into myself without thinking. I was selfish and bold. I made a choice and did what I felt was right and now I have to live with it. I flipped that switch and I will just have to wait and see if it will ever go back to the way it used to be.
I only want to be happy with the choices and people I am around. I want to make people feel loved and I want them to do the same for me. Why does it feel like no matter what I choose, I lose? I guess fate and time have caught up with all that I have done in this life and the past ones. I will just have to let the universe do what it obviously wants me to do. Please to meet you new life, I hope you are better than the last...